Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Friday, October 15, 2010
Life really does go on!
I guess the world isn't going to stand still just for me. It's funny. Usually people find inspiration in these brilliant quotes. My new quote to live by, 'Today I am happier than a bird with a french fry!' We make choices, and those choices determine if you are happy or sad. Every day gets better and better. I don't quite have total control over the anxiety thing, but I am working on it. Last weekend I didn't comb my hair, I didn't shower, I didn't even get out of bed. Not anymore. I finally found a counselor that I like, I actually look forward to talking to him. I have discovered the robbery was just the icing on the cake. My 'emotional bucket' was full, the robbery just knocked it over. I will NOT live in this state anymore. I want to find joy in the simple things, like a french fry!
Three weeks later, here I am. I do feel better. I am taking all actions that my Dr. recommends (even though I don't totally agree but that's a whole story in itself), I am staying active and exercising again, I faithfully keep a journal of my thoughts and feelings (which I have never done) and I am trying harder to live in the present, just worrying about this day, this minute. Photography is picking up and I am always so flattered at how many repeat clients I get as well as new ones. I am actually grateful that I have been forced to be grateful for what I have and not waste any more time feeling sorry for what I don't. I know how quickly life flies by and with or without me, it's going! I want the time that I spend with my kids to really matter to them. I want to cherish what time I have left with them. I have two really great kids and that is what keeps me going everyday!
I don't know what God has intended for me in this life, but I'm listening, I am standing at attention and ready to make better choices for the rest of my life on earth. I don't know where Marty and I will be next week let alone in ten years, I am just trying to be patient and see where life takes us. I think with age and circumstances, I have learned that healing takes time, so I am just taking it slow.
I am so grateful for my family and all of my awesome friends. I couldn't do it without each and every one of you. I am in awe of how many special people are in my life. I am climbing out of my dark hole, and I am doing it for me, and for Baylie and Cam. Again, thanks for all the love and support, you will never know how much it has helped me. I guess right now I should go shower and wash my nappy hair :)!!
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Sunday, October 10, 2010
Awesome Awesome give away!!
Check out this link for a pretty sweet give away!! http://tatertotsandjello.blogspot.com/2010/10/huge-giveaway.html
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010
September 22, 2010
I walked into the bank, where a few of my friends work. Everyone was happy. It seemed slow, there were only two customers, a couple working with one of the tellers and a man talking to the client I was delivering pictures to. The girls that worked there said we have instructions that you have to wait and give him the disc because he wanted to see the pictures first. To be honest, I wasn't in the mood to be there, I didn't feel like 'chit-chatting', but I stayed. A split second later a man, young kid really, wearing a mask over his face rushed into the bank and changed every life in that bank forever. He put the gun in the air, pulled back on the thing on the top (forgive me I know nothing about guns, have never even held one) and said " I want everone to get down. I will kill every mother F*&%^#$ in here if you don't get down. I turned away from him and layed down. There was an older man next to me that wouldn't get down and the robber threatened him again. I looked at the man, sobbing, and said "please get down."
He pointed the gun at the first teller and told her he wanted all her money. He wanted 100's. She gave him all she had and a couple of dye packs. He moved to the next teller and said "No dye packs. I will come back and kill everyone if I find a dye pack." He continued yelling and swearing. I don't know what he said because all I could do was pray. He was straddling my body and spent 2 1/2 minutes right over my head. He was wearing dark jeans and a pair of Jordans, that's all I know. I prayed to the Lord and I thanked Him for blessing me with the most wonderful children in the world. I was grateful for a nice morning. Then I told Him, "Lord I am ok to come home to you today. If my day is today then I am at peace, I am ready. Lord, I don't know how it feels to get shot, but I pray that it is quick and that my family won't have to see me suffer. Give them peace and please show them all the ways that I loved them so much." Then I sobbed, out loud. I was at peace. Then Kristopher Johnson left the bank, and was arrested shortly after.
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Our Trip to Michigan
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For Grandma Lois!
Anyone who knows me, I mean REALLY knows me, knows that I am terrible at two things...keeping in touch and sending out updated pictures. If you don't call me, we probably don't talk all that often. I have the best intentions, and I think about you, I am just not good at keeping in touch. Pictures...yeah I take a million, when you come to visit I will show you! Anyway, this post is for my Grandma Lois. I haven't seen her in years and I wanted to put some pictures of my family and my sister's families for her to catch up on. Love you Grandma, hope you like them!
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Baylie's New Room
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